Why Does My Heart Feel So Bad?

I'm enjoying this thunderstorm today. I often complain that there isn't enough diversity in the weather here in SF as compared to VA, but today I am oddly comforted by what most consider crappy weather. We had been dating casually and happily for the last 2 months. Recently I felt myself leaning in closer and thought about initiating a conversation about where we might be headed. Last night we had "the talk", which had it gone better would have been written "last night we became a couple". I suppose I shouldn't think that all is lost just because he didn't immediately react the way I'd hoped. I'd be willing to consider a relationship that may require more effort than I'm used to giving to because I feel like the reward is worth it with him. I'm waiting to hear if he feels the same. This morning I saw pictures of us from a party we went to last weekend and we look smitten with each other. We look like we fit. There's no issue about whether or not we're compatable, it's more of priority and timing. I want to woo him, to write a "How do I like thee" list to win him over. I am confident that the universe would never present me with situations that I cannot handle, and between my brother and the man, I am surely embarking on a period of growth. My brother's case worker won't be back in the office until Thursday. Uncertainty SUCKS!

My favorite thing today: The little divot in the middle of his upper lip.