June 17, 2002

Someone Else's Drama
My life’s events are at a very still point right now. In the past this made me uncomfortable. I’d get bored and wait impatiently for something to happen, for the next step. I know myself well enough to know that I enjoy the thrill of a little chaos, but I’ve grown to appreciate and cherrish down time. I believe it was my anxiousness that would actually create un-necessary drama, and when I have drama, it’s odd enough on it’s own without adding my mental fuel. This is a great time to focus outward. We spend so much of our time self absorbed, really believing that our issues are worth boo-hooing about. Looking at the big picture make some feel almost ashamed sometimes that I have the nerve to consider myself lacking in some aspect of my life. Probably not a revelation for most, but it’s what’s been going through my mind this morning so I had to get it out. So last night I got to hear a tale of someone else’s chaos. Understand I don’t get any joy from other’s confusion or pain, but I love a juicy romantic situation just as much as the next girl. Okay, a friend has had this boyfriend for a year and a half now. Totally into each other, super solid. My friend is 33, her beau is 25. A couple of months ago he decides that he wants to travel around the states on his motorcycle, find himself. She loves him and will miss him, but knows he's gotta do what he's gotta do. So he's been gone a month now, they talk every few days, and she's confident that in time they'll be together again. Then this weekend, a certain guy who she used to work with and had a secret crush on for about eight years, but who had a girlfriend the whole time so he was off limits, is now single and visiting SF. Uh-huh, she thinks the universe may be trying to tell her something. She was actually meeting with her current beau's mother for dinner last night, but was going to drop in on the visting guy before hand to welcome him to the city. We thought for sure she was going to cancel the dinner and get some hubba hubba, but alas, she made the dinner on time, and announced today that she is steadfast going to wait for her soul searching beau. Oh well, she gave us one night of intrigue!

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